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Friday, 29 August 2008
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Yesterday, Today & Forever
By Vicky Beeching
see relatedbeing as it's been.. ehh 7 months, almost 8 since I've posted... I thought I should write a bit.
August 9, 2008 I graduated from Teen Mania's Honor Academy North. And now I am home.
Home.
What a strange place to be. Yet it's perfect... I know beyond the shadow of a doubt it's exactly where the Lord wants me right now. So I'm happy. I've gotten to that point in my walk with the Lord where it doesn't matter where He asks me to go, what He asks me to do, my answer is yes, just come with me, and I'll go.
Sounds easy enough.. but it's not. I made the decision to let that be my answer to Him when He leads me to a new place- spiritually, emotionally, physically- whatever. But it's not easy. It's difficult to follow through. It's difficult *not* to follow through.. the LAST place I want to be is outside of His good, pleasing and perfect will.. grace is available if I get off course, yes, but if He's offering His BEST...... why would I allow my own selfish desires to get in the way of that?? I live and breath to bring GLORY to HIS NAME..
so who am I to allow my flesh to rise above His BEST?
Home definately is nothing like what I expected it to be.
Almost all of my friends have gone back to college and the only ones really left in the area are my sister, Kacie+Bryce and Brian.
hmm.
Kacie+Bryce are at school and work a lot. I do get to see my sis quite a bit though :) and Brian.. well I know many of you are wondering, so let me *enlighten* you. Brian and I are not engaged. We are not planning our wedding. We are not courting, we are not 'unofficially official' or anything like that. We are friends. We went through a lot in the 2 years we were together, and in the last year of life, we've been through a lot apart. We both have different things going on in the next few years of life, and neither of us are willing to say never, but we aren't promising anything either. We don't know. We don't *need* to know. So if you ask us.. don't be surprised if you get a blank look.. a shrug.. an 'I don't know.' Because we don't.. and we are okay with that. As I said before, I want the Lord's best.. in every area of my life, and that includes friendships, relationships, marriage.. anything. And of course I still care about Brian.. a lot. That's why I want the Lord's best for him as well.. whether it's with me or not. I don't know.. and I'm okay with that. The only consistant thing in my life is God himself.. and I've come to realize that until I'm okay with THAT, I'll live a frustrated life. So I'm okay with it. You may be having a hard time to accept or understand the decisions we've made and/or are making, but we aren't asking you to understand, but we'd appreciate prayer for each of us as we continue to seek His face in every area of our lives.
One quote that will always stick with me I heard from Pastor Craig Nelson at the Church of the Resurrection...
"Blessed are the FLEXIBLE, for they are never bent out of shape."
I laughed when I first heard it, but the truth of it continues to come out in my life as I let things that would normally bother me a lot, not bother me.. to go with the flow can be a beautiful thing. Brian is one of those things right now. I could get upset and want to know.. and live my life wondering and trying to figure it out.. but that's exhausting and really will get me *nowhere*. The Lord will tell me in His timing.. and until then, no worries :) I have a great friend and brother in Christ that I respect more than he'll ever know.
So back to what I was talking about.. being HOME after HA..
Not going to lie, I miss the structure of the Honor Academy. I miss corporate? I miss running in the sprinklers with Elisa at 10 pm. I miss being campused. I miss Centenniel Lakes. I miss the kitchen+kcrew. I miss pausing Ron Luce on the big screen just when he's in the middle of his strongest statement just to look at his facial expression. I miss my brothers :( I miss my CORE. and my sister core :( I miss Heidi and Liz and Tara and all the GIs and undergrads- even though they're alumni now.. and the JONES trio and welllllllllllllllll everyone really...
Lunch meetings. Chocolate Chip pancakes aka my #1 love language.. which hasn't been spoken since I left :(
Monday Nigh..I meanWednesday I mean Mon.. no! WEDNESDAY Night service. I miss the Januaries. I miss all FIVE of em! I miss the back 40... or should i say the back 20? it was beautiful either way... albino squirrel and all. I miss the retirees... and the babies.. and the family of Bethany International. I miss BHOP and chapel. I miss the food.
I don't miss...
-negative20º camping
-corporate??
-ppaaappperrs
-that stupid bee that attacked me everyday on my way to class.. and on the way to MP, and on the way to the dorms, or to the laundry room or any other time i was outside. dumb thing.
-facilitators? we had a love-hate relationship. so i don't know whether to miss them or not..
-my eye freezing shut on the way to class
-the fear of my lungs freezing with the next breath..
anywho. I'm grateful for all the Lord has done this last year of life. It was incredible and I wouldn't change any of it. The experience of a lifetime- HA North. seriously.
I miss you all. Thank you for being a part of my life these last few *seasons.* We've been through a lot... more than most. We were united in a way most wouldn't understand. :) Love you all so much. Better keep in touch.. or as Heather Goose would say, "I will MESS you UP!"
Papa J: "stopp... stop.."
On the four count, counting ONLY on 4, 9 and 13,
Marsh(a)
Thursday, 03 January 2008
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Let It Snow Baby... Let It Reindeer
By Relient K
see relatedBack in MinneSNowta!
Hello everyone!! I'm sorry I haven't given an update in awhile! It was so nice to see so many of you over my Christmas break in the tropical island of Cleveland, Ohio! :) It was seriously so nice to have it in the 30s... but I have to say that the winter here is a lot prettier... the sky isn't always grey and the air is crisp so it is at least nice to look at as you fear your lungs will freeze solid if you take one more breath of the frigid air. Anywho.. as I was saying, I am so glad I got to visit with some of you! It was such blessing. I do wish there would have been more time to spend one on one with people, but there really wasn't and I am sorry for that.
So, I'm back on campus now. We moved into new rooms when I got back, so now I'm on the first floor (where it is WARM :) yay! and I have one roomate now instead of 3, so it is nice. My roommate, Sarah and I get along really well. She's from New York and is one of the funniest people I have ever met. Needless to say, we have a lot of fun together and she has become one of my very close friends. She tells me of all the crazy things she finds me doing in my sleep.. like last night supposedly I was angrily speaking some type of jibberish or possibly speaking in tongues??! At like 4 AM. We're thinking about setting up a webcam at night to see what I do. One of the girls found me sleeping in the floor in the study room across the hall from us a couple times I guess but she couldn't get me to go back into my room so she left me there... That explained my back and joint pain the next day. I promise that I fall asleep in my bed.. and I wake up in my bed... but other than that, I have no idea what I do all night. It is kind of scary, but I haven't done anything destructive or locked myself out in the cold yet so it should be okay. Haha. Also, we've started to decorate our room :) It is going to be a Caribbean Jungle theme... a Jamaica/Panama beachy jungle type of thing. We're super excited about it.. I'll send pictures of the finished product. It might be a couple weeks.
There is a January class of interns here at HA North starting on Saturday, so we are all really excited to be meeting them and helping them as they get started on their intern year. :) It will be nice to have some new faces. We are pretty small up here still.. especially now that the Januaries from 2007 are now graduated and gone. As far as I know there are 3 guys and 7 girls starting Saturday! :) Please keep them in your prayers as it is a very scary transition and bold move for them.
We are also going to be starting some new classes VERY soon that I am really excited about! I will post the names of the classes and a description of them later, because I do not have the list with me at the moment. My ministry placement is still in the kitchen, and I love it. We have a really great crew and it is a lot of fun. I'm learning a lot and I am proud to say that my children will be able to have real meat because I have gotten over my raw meat phobia and can cook it now! Well.. at least the boneless kind, anyway. *baby steps* ;)
I miss you all so much already! Especially those of you I did not get to see! :( I am so sorry! It's a fine line between seeing everyone and spreading myself thin.. there's a lot of you and only one of me. It really was too short of a visit, but much better than no visit at all! :) We actually got a few more days than expected, so I am very grateful for the time spent.
I got to hold and play with my chubby crawling hairy teethgrowing giggling monster of a nephew, Travis, take my 8 year old niece and my adopted little sister, Jordan (shes actually my friend's little sister, but I have adopted her as my own little sister) ice skating, and I got to help teach my 3 year old niece, Macayla that she is not a puppy, but a cute little girl. It is a work in progress. I got to hear the first full sentence she's ever spoken to me: "I love you, Aunt MaHa" I went shopping with my mom and my sister, and ate cold but delicious chicken nuggets and sweet and sour sauce with my sister.. LOL they're only 4.99 for a 20 piece!! Want some more nuggets?! hahaha. I love you, Ma. I was defeated by my Daddy at the fooseball table, and defeat never felt so great. I have yet to find anything close to competition on campus. It felt good to be beat. Also I went to Pennsylvania and jumped out of my best friend's boyfriends trunk and made her scream, run away and almost drop her doggie. It was a good surprise, and a blessing to be able to spend time with her and her family during this time. I got to laugh and play Sardines in the dark with my wonderful friends from school and sock wrestle them and just relax and have a good time with old friends :)
There are many, many other wonderful moments of Christmas break but these were the first to come to mind. It was such a blessing to come home for this time, and it hurt A LOT when I had to say goodbye again, but I came back to campus refreshed and filled with the love of true family and friends that may never understand what I am doing and why I am doing it, but still support me in the decisions I've made.
I love you all so much. Thank you for everything.
I will try to update this more often.
My love and prayers,
Marsha Darling ;)
Saturday, 27 October 2007
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Five Score and Seven Years Ago
By Relient K
see relatedOKAY so I am going to make it to thanksgiving, but not at home. As far as I know I will be joining my parents with my mom's side of the family in southern Illinois! :) SO excited. Pray for transportation safety and costs.
Also, Cleveland's ATF is NOV. 2-4, and we have an LTE the 1st through the 4th so I can't leave campus that weekend. Im bummed, but excited for the LTE soo.. yeah! love you all! hope to see you soon!
LOVE
Friday, 26 October 2007
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Come Away My Beloved
By Frances J. Roberts
see related!!!!!
There is the possibility I might be able to come home for thanksgiving! Please keep this in your prayers! Also: Cleveland's Aquire the Fire is next weekend, so I'm going to see what I can do about possibly going to that.. so you should all go to it, or come take me out to lunch or even just come give me a hug and say hi!! :) man i hope i can come!!!
later sweet potaters

Thursday, 25 October 2007
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The Making of a Leader
By J Robert Clinton
see relatedA day in the life of Marsha...
My typical day:
I usually wake up at about 6 AM, take a shower, get dressed, and go to the chapel to start off my day. As most of you know, I am NOT a morning person.. well that is changing. I finally found an alarm that works: GOD. :) He gently wakes me up at 6 every morning and the first thought in my mind is simply, “Come away with me...” and off to the chapel I go. It is the most peaceful feeling and has changed how I feel about mornings forever. I have fallen into a deeper intimacy with my Heavenly Father that I cannot even try to explain. My prayer is that each and every one of you reading this blog will seek Him out as He waits for you, and just to know that you are loved greatly.
SO now it is 7:20 and I go to eat my typical breakfast of raisin bran, yogurt, peanut butter toast, some fruit, and of course- Mom, my cup of hot tea. I have class at 8 Monday through Friday now, and sometimes one at 9 as well. Each class is about an hour long, and is filled with information and inspiration that has the potential for growth, if you apply it to your life and listen with an open heart and mind. We just finished Foundations class, and are currently taking Enrichment, Character Development, Men's/Women's, Leadership, Monday Night Service, Chapel, and Core. There’s a brief overview of each class at honoracademy.com (click on classes).
After class, I usually have about an hour that I cram in as much laundry, reading, cleaning, etc. as I possibly can before going into my ministry placement at 11 o'clock. My ministry placement is K-CREW.. which means I help in the kitchen! I'm learning to cook more than grilled cheese and macaroni, and I love it! (This is the point in the blog where someone needs to go to my house and make sure my parents haven't passed out after reading the three words: 6AM, clean, and cook coming from me) If those three things didn't shock any of you enough, know this:
I have eaten one and a half hot dogs since I've been here, and liked one of them. And drum roll please: I run. And enjoy that too.
I leave the kitchen around 5:30, and usually have about 2 hours before whatever it is we have that night.. i.e. Service, football (I scored my first touchdown!!), Core, HAIR!(Yes, I found a deserted hair salon in the basement of one of the apartment complexes ON CAMPUS and it is a little run down, but it has 2 chairs, a shampoo bowl, 2 dryers that work! and an air conditioner! If only I had more time and a bigger campus...) So that's about it for my evenings.. I am usually up late reading and catching up on everything, and then I go to bed. Weekends are usually free, but mine are somehow packed on a regular basis with reading, hair (I do get paid donations so that helps tremendously), and well.. reading, laundry, writing papers, use your imagination.. my ‘free’ weekends are pretty busy as well. There's a church on campus called Bethany Church which is very convenient and feels like home a lot. :)
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